Wednesday, January 20, 2010
About you, me, and other parties.
You were once i loved with all my heart.
I hurt him, lost all the good times just to be with you.
I know I was very stupid to do that.
Everyone says so.
Such a good opportunity and I let it go, just like that.
So stupid of me right?
Whereas I know its not worth to be with you.
I hurt my beloved cousin's heart, by letting her hear your name and my stories.
When we were together, you always made me laugh.
By the jokes you're telling, and all those laughter in your eyes,
really made me feel that I'm Yours.
All those decisions I've made, you were respecting, and that makes me feel I'm special in your eyes.
You were giving me all kinds of hopes, as I were listening, I was imagining will it be true.
Every words you promise, every words you said, I was marking all of it.
I know so do you.
As days pass by, love is becoming stronger, even though there are times when I hate you.
I was really trying my best to make you be a growned up. Be a man and not a boy anymore.
But understanding your age and attitude, I know it took me years to see that.
There's this one time you were not how you used to be.
You've changed.
I don't know why, what or who makes you change?
You were not telling me almost everything.
You really changed.
I can't hold on to this any longer, I wants to be clean from you.
So, you've made me let you go.
You went off, without saying anything.
You didn't even give a single call, or message on my phone.
You know that I do wait. But you didn't care.
My everything was to you. I don't ask for any repay of money or treasures.
I just need repay of kindness from you. But I get none. Not even a piece of your heart.
I was trying to put myself through, till I fall sick.
Remember when you were not feeling well, who took care of you, giving you medication and warmness. Its ME. You didn't notice anything.
After you went or left, I'm still not over.
Once my status changes, they came in.
I knew this gonna happened.
It was always like this the last few rounds too.
But this time, I am not going to repeat my bitchy-ness mistakes anymore.
I am not going to fall or hurt anyone.
At this time round I promise myself to be a really-really-really strong girl.
I wants to throw all those bitch attitude I have.
I wants to be the real girl, whom guy can really-really-really love me for who my true self is and not that bitch they thought.
Come clean, I need myself to be as stable as I can be.
Have that real commitment that I've lost years ago throughout.
Find that commitment that I can really-really-really give to them.
Understand my post?
Read slowly and you'll understand definitely.
,Dylarh
12:06 AM
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Goodbye is my last words for you.
I have had enough of the pain you gave me.
Its better for me to let it go now rather than holding it too long.
I have yet not receiving any response from you.
I ain't sure if its approved. I yet still been waiting for the outcome from you.
You made me be someone patience waiting for your response.
Everyone can see that you had changed.
And ain't no sure of the reasons.
Damn you.
After all I can say that I'm over with it.
10:11 AM
